I am meditating, listening to calmradio's native channel in the dark. I am wanting to just let go of my ambitions and materialist pursuits and just meditate a lot (sleeping lots won't be a problem). It isn't the first time I have been wanting to change key aspects of my life. Knowing previous patterns I will be my average self again tomorrow.
It's a positive experience though, I like how I am letting go of my struggles in my mind, wanting just to be, instead of constantly striving.
I am also writing this so that I won't forget.