That's normal no? I am not sure I want to remain tiny and (first world)poor.
It is nice that you are reading this though, hurrah for exposure!
But I suppose even old me has some space to take up in this society, I can only think of the wretched of the earth and their daily struggle for survival, this life I have isn't so bad I guess.
My Grandmother passed away yesterday, I spent a time living with her as I mentioned and she was a big part of growing up too, helping raise me and my sister. I irrationally hope that I will see her again and will miss her as I miss many that have passed on.
I do want to make the people in my life proud of my achievements, even the ones that are no longer with us.